They’re NOT my orgasms

0004f9ec-a95d-9925-3787-f2bd8beaf1fe_110By totallycoverme

The best thing about my orgasms with my master Dragonfyre42 is that they happen when we make love – I orgasm from giving him pleasure. Sometimes the most important thing I can do is put my efforts and energy into blowing his mind and I come because of that. As a result of this, I am a free range slave when it comes to choosing how and when to rub one out for my own pleasure. Or at least I was.

I was first instructed by Belasarius to rub myself off after I did a first blog announcing that I wanted to serve him and curvy_bottom as a toy. The instruction was unexpected but I think that’s why it made me want to do it all the more so.

I do so love to be made so speechless by an instruction that I find myself able to follow it so automatically and slavishly.

Since then I have been given times and ways in which to wank and orgasm/come on a day-to-day basis. If I fail to do this I get punished (I am sorry to say that this has happened twice already due to failings on my part).

I have gone from being free range with my wanking (doing it as little or often and any way I like) to it being a daily task to rub and come within two minutes, twice a day. This instruction has since been made more detailed: I do one stood up and one after practising nadu, transitioning to sula-ki followed by sula. The purpose of this is to train me to orgasm in a range of positions within a reliable time frame. I need to remember that the orgasms are not happening for my pleasure: There may be days when I want less and there may be days that I want more and in different ways but it is not up to me. This is about giving control of my orgasms to Belasarius within the framework that Dragonfyre42 provides.

They are not my orgasms. I have to aim for them whether I have a massive horn or whether it’s about ensuring to fulfil my daily task. On days where I would have been happy to not wank I need to remember that this task is in place in order to offer my submission as part of a long-term orgasm control goal that is being worked towards.

I used to orgasm with master Dragonfyre42 when making love and then do as I pleased. Now I orgasm with master Dragonfyre42 when making love and then give what would have been my free range outside of that to Belasarius in my service to him.

I don’t know if I’ve written this blog well as I am shy. It may well read as too much information but Belasarius has asked me to do this because it is about documenting a process that will hopefully hold a defined relevance within the bigger picture of the training to be of effective service that I am kindly being given.

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Author: Belasarius

I possess the submission of curvy_bottom, we have a medium protocol, D/s relationship - based on the feeling that we are equa and opposite and that we love each other.

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